Saturday, September 7, 2013


SUMMER'S END

Was this the year our errant heart

learned to pay attention?

Murders of crows chortle overhead:

It's time! It's time! It's time!

Spiders weave their last chance

Owls call again and again into the dark

our pressing question,  WHO-O-O

A neighbor's hammerblows beat with chiming clock

Nuts hammer the tin of a ruined barn beyond

A red leaf flutters down on the deck

Goldfinches begin to brown

Our cat brings us pieces of once industrious flesh

Spirits alive in grape and apple fall

Fat juicy cumulus give way to ice laced cirrus

Change in the air, halo around the harvest moon

Confident doe and buck feed in open field

Mildly amused by our outraged pup

Spot disguise molted, their young like ghosts

glide silent in and out of woodland light

How suddenly the light is lower

How piercing

Monday, November 12, 2012

The New House

 
 
The house is haunted.  About 10 years ago our place was surrounded by some 40  acres of woods.  A miracle in small town suburbia, just 20 miles from  New York City.  Then a developer, a Mr. Levine, a shyster by all accounts got permission to build on land which we knew was wet lands property.  There was a pond out there just beyond our woods.  I used to take my young son out there to catch tadpoles. 
The land was a peat bog.  On fire ever since we were kids. The smoke could be see most days drifting over the highway beyond.  We were under extreme caution by our parents never to walk in there.  They said, and rightly so, that we could break through what looked like solid ground and end up in a burning hot pit.  Even firemen didn't go in there unless the brush caught on fire.  They just waited year upon year for the underground fire to burn itself out.  The place came to be known as Burning Hollow.
When the EPA came to take plug samples they look them from the edge of the peat bog.  Of course they came up clean.  Somebody greased somebody's hands.  The parcel was worth many millions of dollars.  Our Mr. Levine got permission to build on 8-10 acres.  We had had our land surveyed and somehow the line was misjudged by Mr. Levine.  And a house went up on a 1600' lot in a AA rated zone where houses should have been on no less than 2400 foot lots.
The New House went up.  We checked and rechecked our line.  The town upheld Mr. Levine's maps.  Soon the monstrosity went up, tall enough to block the sunrise on that side.  The house was painted charcoal black looking like a slag heap of my youth in Pennsylvania.
There was quickly a buyer for the house.  The realtor told her client that our back acre was a park, common land.  Common land!  I called the realtor and told her that common land didn't exist in Ridgedale.  It's something they have in parts of England.  Everyone makes excuses to us for their lies. Our lives were busy.  A kid in college, both of us working day jobs, and nights fixing up our own house. Not a lot of extra money to hire a lawyer.
A man moved in The New House for which he paid 2 million dollars. He married a typical type.  She was a woman who found herself a stock broker, and was attempting with voice lessons to lose her Bayonne accent.  Hair, nails, skins worked on each week.  Dressed just so.
They had a couple of kids.  She decided she wanted a pool in the back yard of the house which was much too close to our line as it was.  She was insistent.  She made threats against poor Jeffrey Bodner who had the bad judgment to marry her.  Jeffrey had trees cut down over our line.  One, a pink Dogwood given to me by my students when  my son was born.  A 20 year old tree.  I called the police.  Jeffrey's surveyor came out and we heard the buzz of his metal detector right where we told him the pin was under a pile of stones at the corner of our property.  We heard him swear and say, "I'm screwed.  I have to tell my employer that  you are right and he's wrong."  The pool went in.  And the iron fence sits today not six inches from our line.  Not code!
The pool dug it rained for a week without stopping.  The ground around the new pool turned to a mud pit.  The new pool filled with silt.  The wife said if she couldn't swim in the pool by the 4th of July she would leave.  She got her swim.  A couple of years.  She and her friends swam and sunbathed naked- the kids farmed out to camps somewhere.  Then the shouting began. 
The woman showed up at a neighbor's place in a silk kimono one night.  Banged on the door saying she needed help.  She had bruises all over her face.  She had them call the police.  She moved out with the kids, Jeffrey sold the house.
Couple number two.  A prominent doctor.  Wife and three kids.  A boy, a girl and another boy, the youngest.  They bought a summer place on a small lake just over the border in New York.  They were enjoying their boat on the lake when a drunk drove his boat of a side cove and hit their boat broadside.  Everyone in the water, hurt, but OK.  Except for the wife.  She had been decapitated in the accident.  The kids saw it all.
The little girls cried day and night for her mommy.  The  youngest told us that his mom was coming home for Christmas.  A series of nannies came and went.  Most had stories to tell of harassment, and other ill treatment.  The kids would become emotionally attached to one and she would be gone with no explanation.  The house was sold to couple number three.
A nice Chinese couple.  Quiet, hardworking.  They owned a cleaning establishment in the area.  They sold the house in less than a year.  We figured the walls of The New House were taking.
Couple number three are in there now.  A second marriage for both.  Her two kids and two boys they had together.  The shouting began two or three years ago.  We chalked it up to PMS, hers.  The children shouted. The teenage girls stormed out of the house.  Windows open all summer, we heard the uproar.  There was weeping. 
A couple of months ago we saw about four policemen in our back field.  My husband went out to see what was going on.  There had been a home invasion.  The couple they said each were having affairs and had gone out for the night with their respective lovers leaving a 12 year old daughter to babysit the younger kids.  She woke when a stranger put his hand on her leg in the dark.  She screamed; the man ran; she called 911.  The police said in addition to their investigation of the break in their might be a case for DYFUS.
Last night, the weather turned mild, the windows were open to more terrible  screaming.  Words, threats.  They went inside and we could still hear the melee continuing.  The boys were outside beating the bushes with their hockey sticks, no doubt in frustration, fear, loathing.  They will have caught the infection.
There are demons in that house.  It is said a girl fell into a burning peat pit over there.  Indians cut peat for their fires centuries ago.  Who knows what strange spirits walk?  Who knows what a place absorbs?  There needs to be an exorcism over there. The New House is haunted. 


Friday, October 26, 2012

LONGING



Did you ever want to lie down on the ground of the place of your dreams
Eat that ground gulp after great gulp until filled with it
Body, mind, soul becoming one
With the very substance of the place

Did you ever dream of loving someone
As much as that


-AJA  October 26, 2012

Friday, July 13, 2012

RUSH

Crouched in the spill pool

Backpack and all

Cold water heaves forward

 Faint pink foam from his clothes

 Bar food and Boiler Maker images

The stripper's golden shoes

Heavy Metal his arteries' staccato backbeat

Gathering  ecstasy his glistening blade

Stabbing loveliness of her eyes widening

To see her spurting blood

Sudden sensual slack peace

To run with the ebb embrace

Dark, so dark, blessed blind dark

 Flagellating branches, cutting shale

Barked shins sweet pain come

Dawn crystal clear knowing:

Christ! They don't catch me,

I want it again

AJA  JULY 13, 2012

Saturday, April 14, 2012

QUIET MAN








Soft suede boots made no sound
He appeared as a ghost through early Spring snow
From the direction of the canyon they call Hell
High desert flakes dust his hat and his back
He led a pale horse with pale blue eyes
Steady and strong hauling his pack.

I invited him rest a bit by my fire
Saw to his horse, nodding he knelt
He kindly refused offered food or help
Took only some coffee from my rusted cup
Hands hard used but somehow soft
The flames lit a face revealing no age
Beard rimmed jaw, eyes deep creased
A gift of a smile beyond pain long ceased 
I go to the mountain whence cometh my help
No need to question the man himself
 I saw in him all he would tell

He soon rose soundless, gathered his horse
To continue to weave his private course
I would descend to continue mine
Separate souls bound by delicate twine










Thursday, April 5, 2012

BITS AND PIECES V




Blame it on the Greeks, or Newton.
We've learned to chop it up
into manageable bits.
Observe.
Record.
Write the equastion.
There's no mystery.
The wallflowers all agree:
they don't like to dance.
The thoroughly modern Times was matter-of-fact about it:
8 P.M. E.S.T. the Moon occults with Venus.
Nothing woo-eee-woo here!
Just don't miss your chance.
See? Time is a line in print.
Guests gather at night in the street to watch.
The rare sight in the dark overhead stuns.
Balloons rise, corks pop, voices rise
Like a shout from the wedding chamber above
signaling the marriage begins.
I feel like dancing a Zydeco whoop-de-do
Friends begin leaving. One bore remains
to continue his scientific droning where the Times left off.
While Venus hangs a miracle on the point of the Moon
he's on and on about how he's changed since he left the corporation.
What a joke. Oh God.
I wonder if there is any wine left.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

BITS AND PIECES IV





I used to to fancy myself an alien here:
secretly dangerous somehow. I had to confess
i'd been naturalized like most other women
who had little free time on their hands.
I meditated along well-stocked aisles of the supermarket.
I found peace in well-decorated rooms.
I found something like joy driving my BMW.
Anyway, by now i've touched everythng
my housemates eat and wear:
My scent rarely scares them anymore.
They permit me to roam freely
and trade but little for time to do as I will.


AJA