Monday, November 12, 2012

The New House

 
 
The house is haunted.  About 10 years ago our place was surrounded by some 40  acres of woods.  A miracle in small town suburbia, just 20 miles from  New York City.  Then a developer, a Mr. Levine, a shyster by all accounts got permission to build on land which we knew was wet lands property.  There was a pond out there just beyond our woods.  I used to take my young son out there to catch tadpoles. 
The land was a peat bog.  On fire ever since we were kids. The smoke could be see most days drifting over the highway beyond.  We were under extreme caution by our parents never to walk in there.  They said, and rightly so, that we could break through what looked like solid ground and end up in a burning hot pit.  Even firemen didn't go in there unless the brush caught on fire.  They just waited year upon year for the underground fire to burn itself out.  The place came to be known as Burning Hollow.
When the EPA came to take plug samples they look them from the edge of the peat bog.  Of course they came up clean.  Somebody greased somebody's hands.  The parcel was worth many millions of dollars.  Our Mr. Levine got permission to build on 8-10 acres.  We had had our land surveyed and somehow the line was misjudged by Mr. Levine.  And a house went up on a 1600' lot in a AA rated zone where houses should have been on no less than 2400 foot lots.
The New House went up.  We checked and rechecked our line.  The town upheld Mr. Levine's maps.  Soon the monstrosity went up, tall enough to block the sunrise on that side.  The house was painted charcoal black looking like a slag heap of my youth in Pennsylvania.
There was quickly a buyer for the house.  The realtor told her client that our back acre was a park, common land.  Common land!  I called the realtor and told her that common land didn't exist in Ridgedale.  It's something they have in parts of England.  Everyone makes excuses to us for their lies. Our lives were busy.  A kid in college, both of us working day jobs, and nights fixing up our own house. Not a lot of extra money to hire a lawyer.
A man moved in The New House for which he paid 2 million dollars. He married a typical type.  She was a woman who found herself a stock broker, and was attempting with voice lessons to lose her Bayonne accent.  Hair, nails, skins worked on each week.  Dressed just so.
They had a couple of kids.  She decided she wanted a pool in the back yard of the house which was much too close to our line as it was.  She was insistent.  She made threats against poor Jeffrey Bodner who had the bad judgment to marry her.  Jeffrey had trees cut down over our line.  One, a pink Dogwood given to me by my students when  my son was born.  A 20 year old tree.  I called the police.  Jeffrey's surveyor came out and we heard the buzz of his metal detector right where we told him the pin was under a pile of stones at the corner of our property.  We heard him swear and say, "I'm screwed.  I have to tell my employer that  you are right and he's wrong."  The pool went in.  And the iron fence sits today not six inches from our line.  Not code!
The pool dug it rained for a week without stopping.  The ground around the new pool turned to a mud pit.  The new pool filled with silt.  The wife said if she couldn't swim in the pool by the 4th of July she would leave.  She got her swim.  A couple of years.  She and her friends swam and sunbathed naked- the kids farmed out to camps somewhere.  Then the shouting began. 
The woman showed up at a neighbor's place in a silk kimono one night.  Banged on the door saying she needed help.  She had bruises all over her face.  She had them call the police.  She moved out with the kids, Jeffrey sold the house.
Couple number two.  A prominent doctor.  Wife and three kids.  A boy, a girl and another boy, the youngest.  They bought a summer place on a small lake just over the border in New York.  They were enjoying their boat on the lake when a drunk drove his boat of a side cove and hit their boat broadside.  Everyone in the water, hurt, but OK.  Except for the wife.  She had been decapitated in the accident.  The kids saw it all.
The little girls cried day and night for her mommy.  The  youngest told us that his mom was coming home for Christmas.  A series of nannies came and went.  Most had stories to tell of harassment, and other ill treatment.  The kids would become emotionally attached to one and she would be gone with no explanation.  The house was sold to couple number three.
A nice Chinese couple.  Quiet, hardworking.  They owned a cleaning establishment in the area.  They sold the house in less than a year.  We figured the walls of The New House were taking.
Couple number three are in there now.  A second marriage for both.  Her two kids and two boys they had together.  The shouting began two or three years ago.  We chalked it up to PMS, hers.  The children shouted. The teenage girls stormed out of the house.  Windows open all summer, we heard the uproar.  There was weeping. 
A couple of months ago we saw about four policemen in our back field.  My husband went out to see what was going on.  There had been a home invasion.  The couple they said each were having affairs and had gone out for the night with their respective lovers leaving a 12 year old daughter to babysit the younger kids.  She woke when a stranger put his hand on her leg in the dark.  She screamed; the man ran; she called 911.  The police said in addition to their investigation of the break in their might be a case for DYFUS.
Last night, the weather turned mild, the windows were open to more terrible  screaming.  Words, threats.  They went inside and we could still hear the melee continuing.  The boys were outside beating the bushes with their hockey sticks, no doubt in frustration, fear, loathing.  They will have caught the infection.
There are demons in that house.  It is said a girl fell into a burning peat pit over there.  Indians cut peat for their fires centuries ago.  Who knows what strange spirits walk?  Who knows what a place absorbs?  There needs to be an exorcism over there. The New House is haunted. 


Friday, October 26, 2012

LONGING



Did you ever want to lie down on the ground of the place of your dreams
Eat that ground gulp after great gulp until filled with it
Body, mind, soul becoming one
With the very substance of the place

Did you ever dream of loving someone
As much as that


-AJA  October 26, 2012

Friday, July 13, 2012

RUSH

Crouched in the spill pool

Backpack and all

Cold water heaves forward

 Faint pink foam from his clothes

 Bar food and Boiler Maker images

The stripper's golden shoes

Heavy Metal his arteries' staccato backbeat

Gathering  ecstasy his glistening blade

Stabbing loveliness of her eyes widening

To see her spurting blood

Sudden sensual slack peace

To run with the ebb embrace

Dark, so dark, blessed blind dark

 Flagellating branches, cutting shale

Barked shins sweet pain come

Dawn crystal clear knowing:

Christ! They don't catch me,

I want it again

AJA  JULY 13, 2012

Saturday, April 14, 2012

QUIET MAN








Soft suede boots made no sound
He appeared as a ghost through early Spring snow
From the direction of the canyon they call Hell
High desert flakes dust his hat and his back
He led a pale horse with pale blue eyes
Steady and strong hauling his pack.

I invited him rest a bit by my fire
Saw to his horse, nodding he knelt
He kindly refused offered food or help
Took only some coffee from my rusted cup
Hands hard used but somehow soft
The flames lit a face revealing no age
Beard rimmed jaw, eyes deep creased
A gift of a smile beyond pain long ceased 
I go to the mountain whence cometh my help
No need to question the man himself
 I saw in him all he would tell

He soon rose soundless, gathered his horse
To continue to weave his private course
I would descend to continue mine
Separate souls bound by delicate twine










Thursday, April 5, 2012

BITS AND PIECES V




Blame it on the Greeks, or Newton.
We've learned to chop it up
into manageable bits.
Observe.
Record.
Write the equastion.
There's no mystery.
The wallflowers all agree:
they don't like to dance.
The thoroughly modern Times was matter-of-fact about it:
8 P.M. E.S.T. the Moon occults with Venus.
Nothing woo-eee-woo here!
Just don't miss your chance.
See? Time is a line in print.
Guests gather at night in the street to watch.
The rare sight in the dark overhead stuns.
Balloons rise, corks pop, voices rise
Like a shout from the wedding chamber above
signaling the marriage begins.
I feel like dancing a Zydeco whoop-de-do
Friends begin leaving. One bore remains
to continue his scientific droning where the Times left off.
While Venus hangs a miracle on the point of the Moon
he's on and on about how he's changed since he left the corporation.
What a joke. Oh God.
I wonder if there is any wine left.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

BITS AND PIECES IV





I used to to fancy myself an alien here:
secretly dangerous somehow. I had to confess
i'd been naturalized like most other women
who had little free time on their hands.
I meditated along well-stocked aisles of the supermarket.
I found peace in well-decorated rooms.
I found something like joy driving my BMW.
Anyway, by now i've touched everythng
my housemates eat and wear:
My scent rarely scares them anymore.
They permit me to roam freely
and trade but little for time to do as I will.


AJA 

SYNC

 

un cailloux jeté dans l’étang
ou le battement d’ailes du papillon
secoue le nœud de nature entier
car tout est lié
tu ne le trouves pas
toi aussi?



Nous adorons et
nous détestons nos compagnons
nous sommes plus bien informés qu’eux
finalement eux, nous sommes !
faut leur demander pardon ;
mes chers, un atome ne nous sépare point!
tu ne le trouves pas
toi aussi?

Si Dieu voit que le monde est bon
il nous applaudit avec les plumes,
sourit comme l’homme dans la lune :
il garde le secret de son silence
notre cliquetis est en vain- quel émoi !
il ne nous reste que nos choix
tu ne le trouves pas,
toi aussi ?
___
A pebble thrown in a pond
Or the beating of the butterfly's wings
Bestirs the whole of nature's web
As all of nature is bound together
Haven't you found it so?
Haven't you?

We love and
We hate our fellow travelers
We are much smarter than they are
But in the end we are they!
We must ask them to forgive us
Dear friends, hardly an atom separates us!
Haven't you found it so?
Haven't you?

If God sees that the world is good
He applauds us with feathers,
Laughs like the man in the moon:
He keeps his secret in silence- what a surprise!
Our choices are all that remain
Haven't you found it so?
Haven't you?

--Ann Ahnemann


HIGH SCHOOL





















Before the Shortline
takes them to the front
my hero parents cry,
Bye! Have a good day!
and send me forth
to congregate by the football field
to smoke and shoot the breeze
and make out somehow.
Here, childhood dies umourned.
Gather the necessary 'what';
'why' is not on the test.
I have my symbols:
Gay, Straight, Guess, Grateful Dead.
I attend disappointing seances
on the leather of dad's Mercedes,
go on AmEX pilrimages to Europe.
Even at the Salisbury Plain
when the solstice pours over the dolmens
there is no escape.
I was born to fall in step,
singing.

--Ann Ahnemann









Before the Shortline
takes them to the front
my hero parents cry,
Bye! Have a good day!
and send me forth
to congregate by the football field
to smoke and shoot the breeze
and make out somehow.
Here, childhood dies umourned.
Gather the necessary 'what';
'why' is not on the test.
I have my symbols:
Gay, Straight, Guess, Grateful Dead.
I attend disappointing seances
on the leather of dad's Mercedes,
go on AmEX pilrimages to Europe.
Even at the Salisbury Plain
when the solstice pours over the dolmens
there is no escape.
I was born to fall in step,
singing.

--Ann Ahnemann

Saturday, March 31, 2012

A HORSE AND HIS MAN

John gave me permission to publish this story he wrote.  It was good to know and share with John.

A Horse Named Blu by John Jeffries

Just a simple story of a bone bagged horse and a lost in mind human lookin' for the next thrill he could find. It all started almost two years ago or more. He wanted a horse for work, ride that pony to the top of the ridges to get working faster, explore that country no one will walk to or thru. Anyways it all started on craigslist, looking for a horse was easy 2 years ago, everyone had em and couldn't feed em or care for em.
Let's start out when the trip came to be. I’m from south NJ.Mays Landing area born in Somers Point. I am a bay rat, born right on it matter of fact. Love the ocean breeze and the smell of the salty bays and brackish waters. I guess only way to say it was I loved NJ and all the trouble it had to offer me… but there were just way to many people there to continue a life I wanted to try out.
I went to high school out west in a town in Oregon called Baker city. Well I came home for some four years or so an then just kept getting into trouble, and just felt out of place. Sometime in July of the year 2005 I moved out west in my explorer called “big Red” ironically. I had a friend named Larry Vanscoy come out with me. We made such a trip outta it, had two dogs with us and towing a trailer we remade in the back yard of a fellow employers. It all was such a rush and totally new start feeling. If I could do it again I would of done it ahead of time!!!! Anyways our travels were safe, some mishaps, bent an axle in Missouri and blew out tires left and right but we got there in just over a week. Home sweet home, Baker city, Oregon. Can’t get any better or so I thought….
Those first months were hard. I landed a job at a Mcds, well we both did, kinda funny because that’s what we both left. Heck got a place to stay at fast and all that. Honestly it was pretty boring at first, broke as a joke and just barely making it but still fun. Ok so one day in the spring I had enough of the MCD life, I quit gave two weeks' notice and in the meantime I was studying to get an applicators license to spray pesticide/herbicides.
It was a smalltime gig that seemed to start to be getting hot. Well I got that license started right up at Grass Growers, a landscape do it all company run by a friends dad. My old man lived out here previously and had known the old spray guy there and hooked us up to get to working. This old guy busted his back crushing himself with a Quad unloading it off a truck he was 3 hrs from any type of blacktop road and all that. Anyways his name is Doug Boone, and yes related to Daniel Boone from those stories back in the day. Pretty cool guy and I owe him a lot for my new knowledge with plants and range land management.
So let's jump ahead a bit, fast forward thru this normal basic living stuff, I met a few nice women but always just seemed to be a bit “tweaked” or something. Who knows, never was good with em anyways, guess I just can’t compromise well with humans unless I trust ya. I worked my ass off because it was my first outside job ever and I loved it, I rode a tractor 12 hrs a day and only took Sundays off that whole summer, well that bad boy tractor bucked me off one day into a rock, cracking some ribs and I am guessing jacked my lower back up a bit. (those things BOUNCE AROUND LIKE CRAZY IN RANGELAND). But I was kinda getting tired of it, I was only pulling in 3 bucks an hr more than my Mcd’s job and working 3x harder not to mention longer hours, something was kinda messed up to me, so I started to look into my own business options, I bought a Quad and put a sprayer tank on the back of it.
This guy named Greg called or I called him, and he wanted me to hike and inventory noxious weeds out in BLM land in Hells Canyon. Now holy crap this was the best thing ever!!!! I got to go work with my dad and get paid my own wage and hrs and everything. Let's just say I made 20hr and he paid the gas for me too. I worked like a hound all over them hills, well dessert mountains, some insane country if ya look it up. Well the best part is that I got to go “treat” these sights I found, so BAM! 40hr to apply herbicide. I was in! Yea, go me. Finally scored and own a setup outfit to make me a livin… so far so good, been spraying for the same guy for 5 years now. I employed my sister and her now Ex boyfriend for two years and now employ him this year.
Life was grand, only thing not feeling good was me, I felt empty, hurt, and numb. I was still taking Tramadol for my tractor mishap. Then the riding the Quad all the time was not helping the sciatica nerve issues… it hurt like sin and just didn’t make any sense to me. I'm healthy all around never get sick but still just felt like crap… anyways it was 2 years ago I picked Blu up so let's jump back to then…
The folks decided to move out west, My mom and step dad that is. I've been out here for 4 or 3 years prior to my mom, the sister moved out here with me, (I towed her $%#@ across the USA while she flew). I guess she was lonely and wanted to be around her kids, they came out, took a look around and it happened to be my sister Hannah’s birthday. We all went up to Joeseph Oregon and rented horses to go on a trail ride. BOY WAS I HOOKED!!!!'
I was like um here is a gold mine for me! I get a horse and use him for work!!!! It's all I thought about the whole time they were here. I took that horse off trail got bitched at soooo much by the leader till the point they wanted to take “Knight” the horse I was riding from me and give me a robot horse. Go figure I paid 40 an hr to ride him so I'm going to RIDE HIM! God what a fun day that was. I couldn’t wait to get home to start looking at horses and learning all I could.
I've always liked horses and have rode them here and there in the past but I felt like I was missing a big part of my life by not having one. I love animals and can train dogs with ease, I've got a Brittany that points and retrieved at six months old. Not to be bragging but they love to work for me or do what they know best.
Ok back to the horses, Mom and Bob were looking for a house in town. It kinda freaked me out at first because my dad and step mom Jody live out here also. Hope it won't rock the boat I kept saying but who cares anymore. It's all old news anymore I thought. Well I was wrong but that’s other drama…
They finally found a house in the quiet part of town and can have horses or a horse and barn animals without a city ordinance issue. YES I can get a horse. Gotta always love the mom. I think she just knew it was going to be good, even though she’d hold it over my head countless times and cause stress, it's still just awesome. So the hunt for a horse began.
I looked online to adopt but I really wanted to get a trained horse and a slow horse. Pretty much a beginner horse. Well I was the beginner at picking a horse out so it all didn’t work as planned. It was hard to get someone to even care to give you the time of day when you want to buy a horse, if you don’t know how to ride that is. They just brush ya off like a kid and don’t bother. Well I was getting a bit fed up with some folks. It was like gees, I'm going to give your animal a perfect home while you have it as a pasture pet…
Well I kept looking, then I found out about craigslist.com. It’s an online yard sale type deal. Also it was nice because it kept stuff local. I found the horse trailer off there and had to put a floor in it, but saved over a grand by doing it that way. I found my first saddle on there. And just other misc tack and such…
So anyways wanted to go look at this red gelding named "red", well story told is Red was missin' an eye all of a sudden... who knows what really happened, guys name was Bill Faulk and he was younger than I but sure sounded like a devil on the phone. I was kinda shocked to hear about an eye poked out but didn’t think too much of it, I know crap happens and things but I didn’t know this guy to judge him or to really think too much of it. He told me anyways red woulda been too much of a horse for me anyways but still I wish red didn’t poke that eye out. I never got to see red but he sure was handsome in the picture.
Still the guy was saying he had this golden horse with blue eyes and a bald face, but he wasn't sellin' him cheap. So anyways I decided to go take a look at "blue". I pulled into a lot off the side of the main drive going into the mountains. I seen a camper fifth wheel style and two Rottweilers running around with a cow dog. It sure was a humid day and just got off work so I was all blue and stunk like herbicides.
Well Faulk came out all dirty, a cussin' at the dogs and just grumpy as all hell. Little short shit, about up to my chin or a tad higher. Looked like a hard worker though. He sure as hell was pure 100 percent bo hunk cowboy though. It was funny to me, I never really got along with cowboys. They just seem like they are special or something and I really don’t know, just they are a dying breed and will eventually kill there ownselves off with their ignorance to the plain old world or even the environment and cultures around them. I truly feel sorry for em, I know there are a few good ones left but for the most they are corrupted by Free Range and Money. Just check out the horse herding acts this past year and the round up of your Mustangs. It's all for them cowboys to put cows in place of the horse. Another story though, Anyways hand shook and I asked where is this horse?
We went out behind the trailer and behold there was Blu. Petrified as all hell and skinny as a dying range horse. I was like oh wow, umm is he dying or something??? Faulk says, No. WTH is your prob? He is healthy as a horse! OK. So I asked him to saddle Blu on up and let's go for a ride. He seemed kinda skittish about doing so, kept saying his hooves were just done and he shod em. So we took a ride. I'll tell you what, blue scared the heck outta me. He didn't listen for shit, hung behind Comet and would bolt to the front trying to challenge a race I think. Anyways this horse wanted to go and was bone ass death skinny.





I told him ok what's the price on him? I know you can't sell him to a person who knows what's up with horses so I'm your best bet. I'll tell you what, he thinks he took me on a price but I knew this horse had the potential and just needed to be on a good diet and just some care and attention. Let it want to do something, then find him a job... anyways I took Blu away the next day for 1500 dollars. Blu woulda went for 10 cents a pound at a slaughter house at the weight and condition he was in. Bones. Blu was 7 years old when I took over the care of him. Born a week before my first dog was born on the same year... kinda ironic.

Anyways this horse would not even load into the trailer, he kept insisting he trained this horse and that's what the price is really about, the work in the horse and his knowledge. Well Blu was as dumb as a walnut. He was a spoiled kids horse, then thrown out on range for who knows how long...

I went around showing off my bag of bones horse. People were nice and some seen the potential I seen in him. I worked that horse every evening after my regular job, Blu has dragged me down gravel roads with my foot stuck in a stirrup from seeing a cow, yes a cow horse scared to death of cows... go figure, Me and Blu worked more and more at stuff, I got a book on training colts. He ain't a colt but the brain of one I thought so it should be easy. Boy was I wrong. It honestly took me about a whole year to really start to understand a horse and what it wants and how to really just work with him. If he wants to go run, well heck I let the SOB run his butt off! And then when he is done, I ask him for a little extra to wherever just trot in the sage. He does but is collected and ready to go. you just gotta let them get out energy before asking them to start to listen- like kids in the am before school, they get to play and socialize before lessons.

So anyways Blu put on a lot of weight and he stated to fill out after that first winter. I mean he was healthy looking after a couple of months but not that healthy looking meat muscle and the glow in the eye healthy.

He now wants to chase cows down and naturally pushes them wherever you feel fit. Not my cows but a nice older ladies who lets me mess around with them. Blu learned some basic tricks, to bow and lay down. He can give kisses and is still trying to play kickball. One thing though, he uses his imagination like no other, anything that looks like a snake he freaks!! and a puddle? oh crap!!! I'm going to drown!!!! it's so funny you can't get mad just go with it and circle him around to check it out again. One thing is funny. I'm just as scared of snakes as the horse is of his fake ones so we really relate with it.

Not all times have been good though, Blu has had some injuries and mishaps on the way also. A tin slice from a trailer mess up and other bumps and stuff from basically being careless or skittish. Let's see. He weighed about 900 lbs when I got him, maybe a 20 lb more or less... well now he is fit at 1080 or 1100lbs, I can't remember if he was tacked up or not last weight. Hooves are growing out ok. He still needs shoes and I learned how to do the farrier work on him. That is some hard work and I respect them farriers who do it for a living. Blu has ear plaque really bad and is in treatment for it right now, he loves the meds in his ears to soothe em.

Earning the trust of a horse takes a lot of time but is worth every ounce of energy put into it. I hope one day to raise a colt to race and be part of its every move... so I guess here is the other side of the story. I had a mishap about 4 years ago with my sciatica nerve thing. Made my legs and lower back hurt like sin. So I was given some pills from the doctor. Well he kept them up for a long time.

Anyways I kinda cured that pain with riding. Going riding helped heal the muscles and whatever else was back there messed up. Well the day has come to stop taking them pills and its rough I tell ya, really rough. Hurts worse than the real pain in the beginning, kinda funny when that can happen... So Blu has been my main drive and focus for the past week to just keep my mind sane. This horse cured my sorrows and my real pain by natural exercise. I am forever in debt to him honestly. He opened my eyes to what I could of become and gave me a reason to help him the most I can.

This horse hears me coming 3 blocks away, I watch him dash across the field to watch the truck park and then whinnys a loud call for his food. and not to forget him. I'll sit there and watch him eat and he chews a few mouthfulls and checks up on me lets me pet him and then eats and back to checkin up. I love it. I can lounge him without a rope, just arms and rotations of the way the arm moves to switch directions. It's still rough but we are really learning to click and please each other without the ways of fear.

Friday, March 30, 2012

VOYAGE





(Sailing from Haverstraw to the Sound)

Here, luxury's the comon lot.
We are in its lap: slack and flood
contractions give us life again.
Fine wool haze hides the shore. We are
the only beings still alive.
It's left to us to keep the dawn's
mauve city dream of peace and grace;
to keep the sun's warm gaiety,
wind playing the world like a harp.
At dusk we keep the sunset's
deepening chakras, when blue glazed
purple swells insipre a grail-moon's
spilled quicksilver to do-si-do.
Trace the flowing rim of storm clouds.
All the myths of time are seen here.
This glass reflects something like God

AJA

Thursday, March 29, 2012

PLACE ON THE PLAIN


Photograph by John Jeffries, Baker City, Oregon




PLACE ON THE PLAIN

Beyond the brook backlit dark

Dies a start stark structure on the plain

Roof gone, boards exposed to rain



The man has reined up there

His horse stamps, shakes his mane

The man dismounts, bows as to hear



Axed tree crack to the ground, adze bark, wood

Saw, plane, square block and tackle hoist, heat

Bobs red bandannas to hammer beat til it stood

Did people here gather, children play

Did cattle find shelter, horses feed

Did any regret the place's decay



The man removes hat, holds it to chest

The brook flows before him wherever it must

Thought furrows his brow, his horse crops the grass





AMAZING



In the dead of night
Amazing to hear the scraping
Old metal hinge as the portal
Of your too long neglected secrets
Groaned to spill
Its contents directly
Into my wide and willing heart
Which gushed back hope it held
More amazing still your muriatic
Mop-up of all we shared
There must remain a stain
Of me on you somewhere
As I yet taste some of you


--Ann Ahnemann

Sunday, March 18, 2012

PLACE ON THE PLAIN


Photograph by John Jeffries, Baker City, Oregon



Beyond the brook backlit dark

Dies a start stark structure on the plain

Roof gone, boards exposed to rain



The man has reined up there

His horse stamps, shakes his mane

The man dismounts, bows as to hear



Axed tree crack to the ground, adze bark, wood

Saw, plane, square block and tackle hoist, heat

Bobs red bandannas to hammer beat til it stood


Did people here gather, children play

Did cattle find shelter, horses feed

Did any regret the place's decay



The man removes hat, holds it to chest

The brook flows before him wherever it must

Thought furrows his brow, his horse crops the grass



Storms clouds recede, going to dusk

Rafter remnants point the remains of day

New vision dawns as the man rides away.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

ART SCHOOL

ART SCHOOL - PARIS 1966

In cavernous room she recines on her chaise
Youth gasps as she grabs off her drape
Auburn hair riot free falls to her breasts
Too delicate hands clasp her mountainous chest
Braving wave upon wave shantung sea skin
Still as stone baba, yeast explodes in the mind
Chalk draws not a line, eyes sneak to the stove
Where the cats give comfort like round warm loaves

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

BITS AND PIECES III





 BITS AND PIECES III

Not to be left out of our conversation
the child injects, Something is following me.
Well now! Oh oh, D's thinking.
Here we go; this is not useful.

He's right of course.
I say, What is it?
The child's flat reply: An angel.

Over D's silent objection I ask,

Is it scary or nice?
The child's look tells me I'm the parent
I so resented-always lurking in the hall
or at breakfast, ready to pounce, to, you know,
Get it out of you before you what, for godssake, died?!?
He's doing this more calmly, nicely, than I used to.
I look down at the scraps of food on my plate
and remember the smell of burning leaves.

Monday, March 12, 2012

BITS AND PIECES II



November gathers fury, crashes
and breaks blue overhead
We can make the few short steps
to the solstice.
Out of the blue, as they say,
the child asks, Do you believe in angels?
Breathe. I'm about to risk that other me.
Which says, I do.
Do you believe in past lives?
Do you believe in God?
Time circles. Where does caution end,
applause begin? I say, Yes.
Aren't new ideas wonderful? In a dangeous
Silent space it scans. He's adding it up--
There may be more than going here, going there
plus doing this and doing that.
He decides to run outside to more pressing matters.